Diary of a CEO

I don't love them deeply

The feeling came when watching ther movie " Pacificer ", I am not sure how it fill my heart, but I reflected to the past 2 months and knows that I didn't pay full attending, decent time and sincere caring to the people who worked with me in the office; I am not in the position to play the decent role of " Father ", consult, care, think, share, couch and join them hand in hand to solve the problems and difficulites occurers after the reengineering of the company; I can't be this way, as the leader of the company, I spending too much of my time dealing with my own agenda, spending too much time accompany with my wife and in a sense hide away from the obstacles happened in the office -- to draw the conculsion for this, I didn't love them ( my colleage, my job, my work, my company ) deeply enough; as I wrap up the first consutation report to EZfly, the first finding is top management didn't spending decent time with employee physically, the mirrow reflection to my situation today, am I trap in the same loop?

Had a second thought about " Determination " - I gave it my intepretation which is " Drawing a clear line in your heart ", this is about my own company initative, if Jean didn't favor with my proposal, then I will and should go my own way, as long as I know how to draw the line.

Why I hated to be controlled? as new Chairman of Taiwan operation heaveling get involved in my operation even through I am not report to him, this gentelman came from Japan seems to be very micro management and love to be in control. the answer arrived last night, I've been automony in operation for too long, past 4 years, there's almost zero interruption in my decision making, or simply because I didn't make lot of decision but to delegate it to COO, maybe all the communication was done by the COO level and he spend decent time communicate with our counter part in Tokyo already, working in multi-national corporation, there no way to skip the monitering system and reporting cycle, I shall change my mind and adapt the new paradigm shift.

Now I know the movie of boxer : Million Dollars Baby. the movie we went last night were excellent. second run movie even better than first run, bigger screen, cheaper price, causal ambient.. a good time killing habit; the question is : Do I have casual time to kill? am I too easy to myself?

The CEO chat for May should publish today.

posted by Roger @ 5/25/2005 10:48:00 上午