Wanna write you a letter
My mind is floating yet my life is stagnating, leaving corporate for almost 2 years, I know there's no turning back. it's time to say bye bye to Corporate Whatever, it's like sailing on the wide sea, now when looking back, you hardly can see the harbor you departure and you are in the middle of the blue sea, if you open your eyes widely, you didn't know where to sink the anchor, where to land and where to STOP...Life Compass? not even existing in the real world, all the books I read lead me to nowhere, I try to play the game, the game to break the word NOWHERE to NOW HERE - from dysfunctional to directive. but this is only the game, it won't reflect to the real challenge, a challenge concerning future but not related to some very important priority in life , such as Family, Health and Friendship...your can only check and balance, now I can define what " Uncertainty " means, although I am not the perfect person to intemperate Uncertainty.
Blur and Fuzz, this keep me nervous, I am getting to use to it as I've been trained to feel and taste the blur for quite sometimes. Do I need a couch? Well, everyone can be couch to others, by writing this letter; I am self-healing in certain way. Or Do I need a doctor? A mentor? a SOULMATE?
The confrontation between Principal and Value battle in my heart, some may change, some may stay, I am afraid what's left should go, what I swept should stay. A value confusion and a battle with no blood shed.
Please try to be a manger instead of a creative director or project leader while I am away, we tried to fit in different shoes and we tried to dress in different outfit, now we try to accommodate to the role in the development of our little venture. I shall return soon, maybe sooner than we know, but until then, please be the manger, learn to be the manager, no matter how hard it will be, try it first, for the first time, for the uncomfortable experience, for the sake of our little hope.
Survive before Sustain, Sustain prior to Success, Significant after Success, the 4 S loop is there waiting for us, we are in stage one - the surviving stage. I know I should contribute more, more in acting than talking, but please bail me from this trouble world, I am not asking for a wild-open door to welcome my return, but a breeze with scent that attract me home, our dream land at csr Community.
It's a luxury to work with the one you love and trust, I guess we both have half of the nature, to keep a 50 years partnership to reality--a test of commitment for life, I feel happy, this is what I seldom sense for a very long time -- a feeling of happiness.
Thanks for finishing reading, and sorry for my poor in Mandarin typing, most of time, I can express my inner feeling in simply English and I know you can receive the level of understanding as rich as I am.
Talk to you soon...........Love
posted by Roger @ 9/29/2007 08:41:00 下午
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