Tea and Trust
I shouldn't asked for the tea session after the Body and Soul Jazz session, althought nothing followed, it against the rule of high morale and decent ethic in our prinspal, raining outside in Tokyo, we finished half of the Jazz session and went back to APA Villa.Calling home for granting my support in rental a suit on weekend for wife and Fruit, however, it cause the biggest question and challenge from her since 3 years ago, she is so suspicious and question me about why closing door at home and spoke something about stood - such a bad intepretation when deliver a comfortable feeling to your partner, and she warning me about the woman and girls surrouned by me, my response become the target for shoot, why she is so sharp and anger toward me, I don't know, why she didn't think about the things I do for her and the support I grand for the past years? why the disturst feelings grow so huge and occupied the whole heart ? I don't have a clue and don't have an answer, it seems like she is planing on her life for quiet a long way, do her nose, sending Fruit to school and keep Sound at Forest alternative eduation, every steps she took lays a strong footfrint of doing some preparation, I hate such a feeling. our conversation over the phone took more than 30 minutes, when asked what to say to C. she turn mad, so mad and challenge me how come my impresssion after the long and serious discussion is to reveal what we said to C. The Virgo's instinct and woman's suspicious will kill the ralationship between.
althoguht she warn me if M. leave C. my company will no longer existed, and warning me if I take this attitude of taking care of customer a way of taking care of artist, then I will be through, she said something about love and beauty, and insist that working relationship turn to a friendship or turst feeling will screw eveything, and warning me all the artistic personality and charisma I spread will drive those talent girls belive in me. then everything will be thourgh, this is the first time I can sense her rationale - so clear and so turth, but why at this moment of time ? why? I almost cancel my trip to Beijing, but I won't do so, ' EVERYTHING MUST PERFORM AS NORMAL AS POSSILBE "and I am an indivisual , I should repsect her feeling , but at the same time, to follow my heart, I know what I am doing. focus on buisness now, as hard as possible and try my best to be the man carry the mission of Lichun. Why ? I don't know why?
posted by Roger @ 3/01/2006 06:21:00 上午
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