Scent from text message
I recapture the scent from your text message, it hit my phone 20 minutes after our brief talk, the talk about my lost feeling, lost in connect my simply mind with your precise mind. I disclose my hesitation to you, as I open the dialogue with you for so many times.We talk, but we don't chat, it cause me unsasy, whenever I need to open my mouth, I have to open my heart, pause for what I am going to let go, this wasn't me, the person you described as " Innocent " ( I intepreted it as Naive ), I lost the excitement of shooting in the air without thinking too much, the freedom of being free in front to you, but it changed, changed as the business developed, and the presure of being somesone instead of the person I used to be... at least the comfort me at you, I won't mind to leave the comfort zone, I won't mind to take responsibility furthur, but, the hesitation to share keep me in some kind of dark, because I am afraind of making mistake, the mistake of not thinking well throught before speak. is it a training? or I am not deep enought to digest?
Yes, it will impact on my confidence in a lot of things, and the depandance on obtainging your ideas before express it externally cause me another problem, the problem of being puppy of someone else, if my confidence level lower, I am not sure about everthing we did, I can only bridge, help or assist, never own, scare to probe and afraid of take control....
I am glad to see the text message, I am not asking for some kind of comfort, but to recap on the true and real feeling, the feeling of being oneself, the feeling of why doing this together, so hard, so difficult and so inreversable.
Second run movie becoming a health routine for my after work entertainment, it is less-expensive, more relax and much fun -- sometimes you don't feel like going to the opening run of some movie - simply because you don't like the Chinese translation of the movie title, by visiting second round movie theater, you discover some great films from your lost search.
tonight, we go the one " Meet the Robinson's " a great animation produce by the famous Disney, it promote the positve thinking ( Keep Moving Forward ) and the family valuse, and with the flavor of creativity and fun, I enjoy it very much, as it echo to what Walt Disney said decades ago, leave a strong impression to me, I recall the process of Disney recruiting and had an emotion to write message to the recruitor, we may miss each other if some end don't catch up, and it will be a great lost for each party, a company who produce film like " Meet the Robinson" earn my respect deeply.
" Wild Hog " is a mid-life crisis nostagia movie, it do capture the heart of mid-age Americans, or the people who grow up with the American Heritage. fun to see.
posted by Roger @ 6/26/2007 11:09:00 下午
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