Diary of a CEO

Near Death Fear

I had a strong fear of death last night, when returning home from the gourment dinner at Tutto Bello with A. Chew and other culture trip friends; I don't know why, but the feeling approching me so real, it kept me awake, I told me wife what I shared with A. Chew about " Learn to live with what we couldn't control " is a high flying target, if the misfit come to me, I may not be the man I pretended and I may hold the fear deeply and maybe not able to get out of the trap myself. a very misearable predition, so, I am afraid, my neck stiff and I can't sleep well. woke up in midnight - as A. told me that since his daugher pass away due to the cancer after returned from the culture trip, he can't sleep in Taiwan at all. he had to travelling aboard to get some sleep. The trauma in him is so significant. he can't help to release it.

I havn't encounter with such an experience, but it seems I am afraid of not able to deal with it. what or who will help me? or the only solution is in me?

A very long day on Sunday, promise to visit Chu-Nan Temple in the morning, we brough the whole family there, accidentally, run into Ping Ho - our EMBA classs student leader at the temple, we run into friends every where, this is not a surprise to me and my wife, donate the bricks at the temple, then we move to second target, Bali - for Tan's visit again, tell him and update him my current situation, it's a habit and this is the first time my family as a whole light the insent in front of his ashes. it's been 9 years; after those visits, the remaining time is limited, having spare-rib deep fried rice at the famous " Black Shop ", we move forward to Fung-Ga musume - the meeting point with A. Chew.

for catching up on time, the family move with me to Pei-Tu area 2 hours ahead of the schedule, we found an quiet cafe', Sound and Fruit enjoy their Sapggatii and I enjoy reading the story boaut Critique du Sollite - learn how the company keep the spirit of : think what's impossible today, and find one or two to perform everyday; avoid the comfort zone and advise us, be safe is a very dangeous in their business. and the out of the box thinking : never repeat the formual - no crone for the success show or forming a touring company, but keep create and invent new and astonishing shows -- the circus without animal ( costly and controvisal ), it gave me a few idea about the " International Music Festival ", I draft the plan and prepare to send it over to C. today.

Chinese stiches collection is the most famouse material in Fung-Ga, Chew collected accalimed the best period ( from 1940 to 1990 ) and best artists' ( support by Chinese Government ) and best art peices ( before it turn to private sector, he secure almost all the best art peice from both Hunan and Shecho Stiches Musume ), the exhibition at the museme is totally different from his collection - they are mordern and contemperay; he support new artsit and sponsor them if the exhibition pass the bar of their committe; he establish the culture foundation for the purpose of revitalize and purify the heart of nowaday Taiwanese, the prosipority of ecomony didn't improve the quality of human kindness, he then forming the Spring / Autumn Contmeparary Composition Institution to support composer in Taiwan - Spring for those under 40 years old, Autumn for 40 above.
Fung-Ga musume established right after 921 earthquake, it's been 5 years, no admission , free space, open fourm, community beauty education... a ture heart from once shining entreprinour in Taiwan.
Dinner with he and L. - his wife, Chung-Chang - his son and other culture trip brother and sisters were great. we share so many things, and it bring me what I mentioned in the opening paragraph; Chew said we are the young talent, and this is exactly what I said to other young people. generation by generation, the comparision of young stay in different mind and heart.

we both follow master San-Yang - Dhara Zen religion. he asked me to join the monthly gathering if I may, I will try to accomodate.

posted by Roger @ 7/25/2005 08:10:00 上午