Do I have the right to feel depress?
Developed a sorrow yesterday, this is the worst situation since I recoved by Mid-May; after the rehibilitaion speech at NCNU. But recently business development in both my private sector and corporation cause me to think negatively again.I shared the " Unfinished " and " Substraction " metaphore with my wife last night, it was almost 2 in the moring I guess, she didn't agree with me and told me " Here you go again ", trying to find a shelter of my own, running away from the responsibility I should take and thinks of some hermit life to escape from reality; well, she is right in half. to move myself somewhere and balance it the norm -- my comfort zone to filtering those trouble in life; but to share it with her is for seeking a comfort from her, a bias support again, she is right, but the turth hurts, that's why we need the story to cover it , like the bitter medicine covered with candy.
I should not feeling depressed as I am not entitled to act so, looking around people , they are jearous about my current everthing - family, career, social status.. I recalled what Mr. Chu mentioned at Titto Bello -- we spending entire life serch for happiness , as this is a dream when we are little, but growing up and pursue more, the happiness seems distance from where we are. then I capture this hardship and making a notation of my own : Growth is the learning process of knowing how to handle contriditon, such as work and life balance.
I am not complaning my wife as she support me in every aspect of my life, but to find someone to talk to in this gesture, the shoulder should not lay too hight for me to reach, she sense that her reaction deepen my sadness, but I should know how to overcome it myself. this is not the final judgement in life, there's a long way to go and there are more challenge ahead.
Inviting A. Chang over for lunch - a primary school classmate, since he gratudate from Australia EMBA program, we didn't keep in touch for like 10 months, I invited him for lunch, for nothing, but a greeting and update. I don't enjoy the feeling about people seeing you as the life vest in the wildness ocean, but sharing itself can't get rid of such an encounter. we had a good lunch, I am impressed about his study in chain laundry store and invest in the dream he belive - although he used a terms which is not so appropriate - Buying himself a job in the business he interesed.
Attending RAY band press party - all the veteran in music industry show up, but only a few press; the gathering is like a retirement assocaiton, theres no hey day and there ain't good old days, seeing the decline of indusy post a great doubt in me -- do I really want to be a manager at this turbulance ? do less with more, this is totally against economy.. I kept thinking.
Met with J and another guy from Intergraphix and introduce them how to access to content , calling T. Wang at once, the response is fair, if K. can devleop his novel into the flash animation story, may be another good product line... I prey for the best. Welldone didn't follow our blue print, J. must find a way to bail himself out of this situation. no capital increase at this moment of time, bringing more business is the key to survive.
posted by Roger @ 8/11/2005 08:17:00 上午
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