Diary of a CEO

Singing a song in your heart everyday

I spend decent time to go over the gesture inside my heart with my wife last night; the delimun stays for a while; it was cause when sitting at my car on my way back home last night. it was like 10:00 pm, I just done my Wedsneday ping pong exercise, but don't know why the echo of J. uncomfortable feeling hit me , it hit me hard, I took his position, think at his shoes and response the way he does. to be honest, I am shrinking to his mind and lower my view when taking this apporoach. there are too many why and I don't have an answer; the interactive with my wife works out. she pull me out of the trap and advise me not to lower my postion and create the internal competiton among directors. I should not stand in the war of talents. especially when I am still running this bridgage; she warned not not to trap in the power game. fear about someone's stealing my power and put me in a dangerous position; she said, the more aggresive I show to people that I want to hold the line; the clear my people see me in a unsteady situation; Calm down. steady and act as normal as possible and be the executive of the company - I am and I should perform exactly what it should be. then we follow the conversation of deploying my own business. haste makes waste; she feels that I always take the physical appearance issue as the excute tried to escape the entreprenureship or didn't had the courage to go my own; I had to explain to her the cost and risk involved and told her , not physically appear in the foreign country, you will never get the job done and the investment will be out of control, how can we afford to dispose what we have ? in fact, we don't " Have "... she don't really understand as she never worked in corporation before and she don't understand how a multinational company like us consume my time and energy... However, as the determination defined. I will do everything perfect from the time I made up my mind and I believe I can do it.

PTS lunch with 2 big head, Chairman updated me the situration of CTS and the stock release / transfer legistive process; they have 70% of confidence to reach the goal. but to my knowledge, the final candidate for running PTS 2- or CTS will never be decided by the PTS board alone; the political exercise must be huge and it will follow the model of Minister of Education / Prime Minister and President's power play-- who's call and who's in charge... I simply advise these smart guy... the scheduled to make my decision -- well, if everything follow their strategic plan. the earliest will be Nov. or Dec. and the latest will be next Summer. I simply leave it as an option. just an option. I am not sure if my passion to pursuit the public interest will remian strong then, or my struggle in life and work will force me to take another road.? well, you never know.

posted by Roger @ 6/09/2005 08:30:00 上午