Diary of a CEO

Something

I feel something missing today; I bite my lip hard when having my lunch, I took the light meal - a tuna sandwich; I can feel my blood running thourgh my mouth, I kept eating and the sandwitch was mixed with lip skin and blood, so I have to swallow it all, then I realized somthing's gonna happen today.

Take the elevator up to the 2nd floor, I hate to take the elevator for only one floor, but this is a security reason, the administration office at NKSP locked the exit form the outside, it followed all the procedure to keep the office safe, your cordless security card can only bring you to the desinated floor. walking to my office and read my mail, the " My regination letter " pop up to my eyes. I rush to open it, the director who we were at dinner last night sent his resignation letter to me by mail.

I response in mild mold, I reply with my voice, telling him I respect decison people make in regard to their own life, yet advise him Maturality of a man is to learn how to deal with the contradition in life - normally it occupied 80 percent of our life, and I share with them Growth is the process of learning how to handle pains , and this is only a beginning of a pleasnat journey, know how to grow, how to respect and how to handle.

I am not losing my direction, I called his wife, asked her to comfort her husband before Sat. that's the day I asked my secretary to book a good restaurant for the newly married couple and me, I need to build a family / itimacy ambience to convery my message to him - stay with me or let's leave together, this is an emotional attached to influence on his decison. to defer the impact on our operation and to retain a talent we trained and grows.

I hate to made simply decision and I understand this provide a vicheale for one Janapese expatraite to achieve his goal shorter, taking control of one businees unit - a fat and primary business unit in our company, it will easily break up our operation, I can foresee the disband of the company. although it may achieve some goals not inclusive in my plan.

Recruiting from outside and seeking qualified executive ? not a very good appraoch, as the director's positon is a very now layer we created for these golden child, how come it be the termination station for one of them? I don't understand, to seek talent outside will cause some domino effect and result to the chain reaction of managers' resignation. this is my wild but turth feeling.

No matter when I sense the leaving of J. as it happend after the announcement fo COO's leaving, everyone in our company will treat it as the impact of COO, and I can't stop the roumours going round and round , and no one will understand how I tried to defense J. and cause the " Most uncomfortable Day " of COO.

The the impact will travelling and growth, the confidence level from employee will decrease, people will lost their faith in what they believe ( if they did ), and the turn over rate will be much higher than we anticipate, and in the end, no one can save the company from its confidence bankrupcy.

There's something I want to say, say to you, say to her, and the echo to myself is : I still keep the same level of determination -- To draw a fix - real line at the bottom of my heart, live every moment of my life a value one.........

Chanllenge come like the big wave, it rolling to me over and over, higher and higher, I will surfing on top of the wave, waiving my arm, embracing the strong wind, I am I. the one and only Roge.

posted by Roger @ 7/05/2005 09:48:00 下午