Adjustment of my clock
It's been almost a year, the loose and low displine life reflect to a less aggrestive attitude toward my life and body, I knew I am a very passive person, without pushing, monitoring or motivation, there's no way I will approch the sunshine, thinking positivly and out reach for the meaning of everythings.The self employment for a year, I have great learning about people and about me. know the real world and see how it works, check the internal me and review my reaction to my feeling. spending one year to learn these lessons, I don't know it's long or short, but without a " Revltalization " and self-rediscovery, the time spent will in vain.
Remember once I made a statement in my cv, The resume to sale myself to potential employer, on the Strength column, The first statement I made is " Thinker and Doer ", but now, after all these rare experience, how to describe and define " Thinker " or " Doer " is serious question to me. but I know, from the diary life of me, my company and the change of my body and mind, I am be sure that the change in me is in a negtive direction, I didn't grow up physically and mentally for the past 11 months, I am not insist on the believe we founded the company, and I am not so sure that CSR will be a good business in near term, and I reluctant to share with people that I will never return to corporate.... the state of mind grow , what's behind it ? only the frustration of finding next client and only the urgent to finance our company next year, a very short-sighted concern occupied almost all my heart, it leave me little room to think positive, about the company , the vision and the goal we set year ago; I don't know if this is the road every entreprunure must pass? but to me, I don't have answer in me and I don't know who to crying for?
However, my body and mind told me if I don't change in postive direction, the worst may come anytime, I have to rewind the clock, put meself back to a good shape, a condition that I love and people know, this is the only solution in me, nothing relate to who to borrow money ? where to work after and what business domain we shall change in next month... this is the list of change I make today, it can be treated as the draft version for my New Year Resolution - 2007:
1. Pick up my exercise at least twice a week, if I can't have it, subsitute one with bicycling and meditation. be more precise - I shall swimming at Regent twice a week and a Spa weekly.
2. Diray to do and weekly to review with my note pad - due to my integration with PDA and Phone, I don't carry on the writing memo / article habit, now, Notepad should help me regain it, but why not digitize when writing memo, think how to make my m600 works better for me.
3. Information reaching out : even I don't have the luxury to sit and wait for information to me as old days, but the convience of internet provide almost every treand and new things I want to know and learn, build my treand musule by checking a few good Chinese / China / English site on regualar basis, not for habit only.
4. Saving for the raining day : keep my life simply and reducing bad money spending habit, I know I can do it.
5. Be expert in what you do : no better its CSR, consulting or any other thing, be concentrate and dig in , if I don't work hard and have a decent learning, there's no way I will grow and be new leader again.
6. Manage my relationship : the asset and resouce on hand need to maintain, it leave me one year to pick up and re-connect what's been lost for a year, if I don't re-establishing it, then I may lost what's been generate before in multi-national corporation.
7. Balancing : enjoy tele-working at least 2 days a month, go overnight in controling budget with family, if I don't have time to do it, then I am totally lost in being a self-employer.
I don't want to great a long list wish, but to focus on the 7 major area, to regain the 7 habit life and to be as positive as possible. this is the resolution draft and I will make it a workable something for me after return from Angkor Wok...the 3rd time
posted by Roger @ 12/04/2006 09:09:00 上午
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