2003/12/10

as I can't be depressed for too long, and stop feeling crying, so, I made up my mind to picking up the pieces and return to normal situation, last Friday, I accompany David paying visit to a car dealers which runs by one of my EMBA classmate, David is a YPOer, senior than me, I told him than I am planning to drop the application to YPO and seeking his opinion about it, when talk to him the reason why I am no longer interested in this association were contribute mainly from how other members perceive me as an executive and second reason is the true purpose of participation on this institution, he mutually explained to me his comment and told me " professional mangers " encountered the same problem I had and they simply back to basic and telling themselves that " treat it as an extended training course ", learning and grow thing opportunity for oneself and choice what ever you feel comfortable event to take, not necessary treat it as an obligation and force yourself to do some thing you don't really enjoy.

If I miss the Christmas Party, then the chairmen will take the message of I don't want to join the organization with angry. if I join the party then tell him my decision afterward, then it will be the message of -- I have no intention to join ,but I am happy so far, to prevent my mis-interpretation to others, while discussed with my wife, I decided to join the party without providing any surprise to the party.

Saturday, I went for a movie alone, this is the second time I go to the movie by myself for a very long time -- like 10 years, as my wife did a not so successful eye lid surgery, we can't go to the movie together, so I make the decision to do it my way -- the movie I went is " Hunted Mansion ", I don't like horry or ghost movie at all, and I don't go to such a type movie, why I took it one and go alone ? as I knew this film is produced by Disney, a company provide home entertainment and pleasure, I feel comfortable about what value they goanna bring, so , I treat it a special effect movie instead of a ghost movie, Eddie Murphy is a good actor but the story is a little bit too boring, after movie, I walk to the ping pong exercise field by foot and walk by one hybrid book / music shop, stop over , I bought 2 books dealing about " risk taking " and growth and bought 2 Music CD release by Winds record, the company which I am going to deliver my first full time training on the 19th, one according album and one acoustic guitar album; the book topic caught my attention as I am now dealing of lots of uncertainty, frustrated, depressed and feeling blue, the game on Saturday night is a very exciting one, every player perform his best and making the game so excitement and entertaining, when you concentrate on playing one sport game, you feel great.

I almost forgot on Friday night, I went home earlier and take this chance bring my wife to the movie " Mystic River ", Sean Penn is such a great actor, Clint Eastwood making the film a a ' Twin Peaks " alike cult film, actors were so great and you really enjoy seeing them on screen. before the movie, I pay a very short visit to the basement of the cinema complex -- now open a new underground music space -- they call it " The Wall ", it's a cluster of young / alternative market place, from tattoo shop to alternative record outlet and a middle size venue for alternative / local rock band; people in alternative environment are so creative, they name the street on the basement themselves, a main street, a frond street, and a back street to the toilet, when you use the toilet, see the sex sign on the door, you will smile on , it post " boy " and " girl ", so any many want to use the urine , should find the " Back street boy ", I love the humor they present.

DR. Wei call for the golden horse awards ceremony tickets, I call GIO immediately and get a " OK " immediately, when retune the call, DR. Wen is so happy, I am happy as well, but until yesterday, GIO told me the tickets is in kiosk and apologizes to me, I don't know how to call DR. wei, when forward the bad news, I can feel how disappointed they are, today, before my speech to GIO, I asked for the last favor and finalize secure 2 tickets for them.

Last Sunday, I am busy all day for preparing the speech document, lunch was on me, I invited all the family to Bruno for lunch, a Japanese style Itallian restarunt provide value set meal with high quality -- this was the experience before, unfortunately, when we had lunch on Sunday, the quality was not as good as before, so, we might drop it from our gorment list, Fruit in on a diet since last Monday, she ate only fruit for dinner expect Saturday and Sundays, I can tell that she is so content when eating real food on Sunday.

as I return to normal life style, doing home work on Sunday, so I bring back 80% of my energy on Monday, Monday night, I invited 2 manger for dinner at a very flesh sea food restaurant , this restaurant was introduced by Osking, one of our ping pong team member and win our heart since then, they just move to a new location -- bigger and more comfortable, this 2 managers is like 2 sare stich to my management weakness, " Telling the turth " is what I promo now, so, I organize this casual dinner talk with them , this is the 3rd time so far.

Monday, when check with my wife how is the return clinic check for her eyes, the answers was bad, both of her eyes wewr imfected during the opereion and need further treatment by the eye specilist doctor, I am so mad because I told her before the surgery that we need second opinion before any surgery and don't sing any unclear paper before entering surgery room, she didn't perform both and cause this bad side effect, since last Wed, she got both eyes red, I found it strange but don't know how she feels, she all alwasy lie to me to make me feel OK, such as until yesterday I found after the opereation she could not come up with any tears, this is really terrible, thanks God, these 2 days, the eyes getter clear and white, again, don't change you body or re-shape it simply for beauty calls.

GIO speechi is a great one, as the organizer advise me to make more fun during the speech and to keep the lengy up to 110 minutes, so, I need to rehearsal for a lot of addintional meterial, thanks for the efforts made before, I have enough material to continue my speech without interuption. and I trun out making the Golden Horse Awards ticket secure again, a plus to it.