Chinese Velentine's Day
It is a contridition for the Chinese tradition; Velentine's Day fall in the month of ghost; lunar July is the month of ghost, especially for those who didn't receive worship or offering, so called " Lonely Spirit; Wild Ghost ". I don't mind if all the memorial days are commercialized by merchant, but to keep a day for celebration together tend to be a human nature.
I send on eCard to my wife, drawing by myself, use my clummsy painting , I draw a suspension bridge, 2 person walking hand in hand on the bridge, the boy in red, and the girl in green ( this is taken from the Chinese ancient description for man and wowan -- The Red Man and Green Lady ); surprisly, when seeing wife around 8:00 pm, asked where she plan to spend her Venlentines' day, that's the restaruant located on the east side of the Bitan suspension bridge, a restaurant called " Mary's Rose ", we have such an itimacy for quite a long time, share the same mind with someone is a great experience. not a Deja Vu, but something's there, you know , they know.
Lunch with S. at Sumie, possiblely one of the best creative Japanese cusine in town, a new trendy place to eat, during the lunch, I express my decision of not join EZfly to S. as I disclose it to his senior staff before , the pre-laid ground make this conversation much easier. we talk about Rock Mobile and some idea may turn business in the future, I am not sure if this agiant the YPO or Forum displine, but...
Wife is upset about C.'s aggrestively address the Side Project business licence ownership, a minor investor wish to take control wasn't a good sign, this cause her unhappy, I am not so surprise about wife's reaction, but fully support on her clear cut in business sense and decision.
Invited Tim come over for the image serching and blocking presentation, 45 minutes is what I can do. hope it gave him some encourgement, it's been 5 years in the development and I am doing favor for A. -- another Forum priority.
Carol - another typhoon approaching, this is the 3rd typhoon in a month and precising targeted the Beach Concert Festival- if they postpone the 3rd time.. what an conincedent and what a sad thing.
Fininshing my online gudging for a campus new talent serch, the machanisme is good - qband and I discover one singer / songwriter, I think he is good.
Do I have the right to feel depress?
Developed a sorrow yesterday, this is the worst situation since I recoved by Mid-May; after the rehibilitaion speech at NCNU. But recently business development in both my private sector and corporation cause me to think negatively again.I shared the " Unfinished " and " Substraction " metaphore with my wife last night, it was almost 2 in the moring I guess, she didn't agree with me and told me " Here you go again ", trying to find a shelter of my own, running away from the responsibility I should take and thinks of some hermit life to escape from reality; well, she is right in half. to move myself somewhere and balance it the norm -- my comfort zone to filtering those trouble in life; but to share it with her is for seeking a comfort from her, a bias support again, she is right, but the turth hurts, that's why we need the story to cover it , like the bitter medicine covered with candy.I should not feeling depressed as I am not entitled to act so, looking around people , they are jearous about my current everthing - family, career, social status.. I recalled what Mr. Chu mentioned at Titto Bello -- we spending entire life serch for happiness , as this is a dream when we are little, but growing up and pursue more, the happiness seems distance from where we are. then I capture this hardship and making a notation of my own : Growth is the learning process of knowing how to handle contriditon, such as work and life balance.I am not complaning my wife as she support me in every aspect of my life, but to find someone to talk to in this gesture, the shoulder should not lay too hight for me to reach, she sense that her reaction deepen my sadness, but I should know how to overcome it myself. this is not the final judgement in life, there's a long way to go and there are more challenge ahead.Inviting A. Chang over for lunch - a primary school classmate, since he gratudate from Australia EMBA program, we didn't keep in touch for like 10 months, I invited him for lunch, for nothing, but a greeting and update. I don't enjoy the feeling about people seeing you as the life vest in the wildness ocean, but sharing itself can't get rid of such an encounter. we had a good lunch, I am impressed about his study in chain laundry store and invest in the dream he belive - although he used a terms which is not so appropriate - Buying himself a job in the business he interesed.Attending RAY band press party - all the veteran in music industry show up, but only a few press; the gathering is like a retirement assocaiton, theres no hey day and there ain't good old days, seeing the decline of indusy post a great doubt in me -- do I really want to be a manager at this turbulance ? do less with more, this is totally against economy.. I kept thinking.Met with J and another guy from Intergraphix and introduce them how to access to content , calling T. Wang at once, the response is fair, if K. can devleop his novel into the flash animation story, may be another good product line... I prey for the best. Welldone didn't follow our blue print, J. must find a way to bail himself out of this situation. no capital increase at this moment of time, bringing more business is the key to survive.
I am touched
J's response after Workshop moved me, I am touched, he send me a mail addressed how he feel my heart and make a commitment to stay with me, until the day.... I am not saying this is a pay-off, but this is the true value when devoted my heart to my work and to the peoples who turn this company rolling. staff may not know, their commitment is the medicine to superiors when those who they report to feel depressed. I return with another warm mail, to show how appreciate I receive his greeting. J make my day, out of those troublesome operation.Sending Yu-ching SMS dairy, the routine keep both in up status, this is the least support I can made, last night, when returning home, I send her message which inspire me, the key message is : 「When working, we drive people, asking for more - a multiple mindset to numbers, but in real life , God's nature, days are always numbered, the rule of nature is subtraction」, so we are living in a world of contridiction, like a dog, chasing its own tail, circle around and never get the chance to pursue what it want.
Had a conversation with T. about the creativity debating last night, I sent him a mail about how to win the collective efforts in accomplish his mission in Taiwan, he is a mature person, but frustrated in bringing everyone's energy to his level of devoting. as an expatriate, he know some of the ground is not the same as local hire, and he understand the toughness thing is to insturct people to work as hard as he does. but what make him feel uncomfortable is not the creative discussion itself, but the attitude he sense at the meeting, everyone want to go home earlier - acturally that was 9:00 pm already , and that's a Fathers' Day , the tag of war didn't take place, it's like one little giant fighting with 2 troop - one from the advertising agency, one from inhouse colleage. this must be a hardship for him; I asked him to my office simply want to show him I am supporting him and at the same time, share my experience of how to get the job done before the meeting, such as : Find a better time slot for such a meeting, a pre-consensuse build up with internal staff, forming a samll group with kep person when encounting diffculity at a big meeting.
Attending Parent comapany's Assembly meeting at Ambassdor Hotel, I though it will be a boring one, but, to my surprise, not as bad as I expected, S.-san did a good presentation about " Lower the silo ", he is good in conduction / preparing the presentation. the employee club promotion and introduction session is fun and energetic, I am surprised to see a few good bilingule doing the presentation, they do have great potential in the multi-national company, and why we didn't recurit new comers equipped with the same attribution.
HR head T. asked me to cancel the IWNC training this time, for cost saving and for the purpose we already have - the shared value and spirit. I respect her decision.
Monthly closing meeting , I can smell S.-san wish to conduct cost-cut / reengireering session with us, a newly elected Chairman of the board actively involved in our operation, it's wired and I know I need to preparing a defence plan at the re-budget meeting.
Went to bad earlier than before, a good night sleep, wake up one hours earlier than before, and those " What I shold do " hit me to my brain, wait a minutes, I call myself a halt before my mind went explosion; why Chasing the " Unfinished " become gaol for common person? will we really feel regret when didn't achive some goal in life ? or should we stay in one place for a while, looking around the sceneray and enjoy the break in life ? it keep me thinking on my way tot he office this morning.
Workshop
Preparing my workshop facilitator material during the weekend, it took me 2 full days , I read, make note and digest the " The Workshop Book " published by ICA Canada and come up with the agend, protocal, goals and a few tools to be exercised on Monday's meeting.
This is such a heavy work as I am going to be a faciltator, the importance of preparation is equeal to the the meeting itself, I wish to build the model of consensus communication among director and senior manager of the company and wish to set the model for such a revolutionary meeting - an equeal share, respect, value mentality.
Sunday -- having Shabu Shabu with family, Fruit want to have this before returning to school on Sunday night, the school bus will pick them up by 8:30 pm at Shien Dien station. the hysterias behavior developed again, you never know why late for school is such a big deal to her, even though we arrived at the meeting point 15 minutes before. this is Fruit, my daughter who create itimacy externally than with her won family, I have to accept it and to know the fact.
Christine sent a mail on Sunday night, the message show that her family reach to an agreement to let her try the entertainment career with me -- me and my wife, I don't know this is a good sign or bad sign, but the load of manger falling on my shouder immediately, it gradulated develop to my wife, a lady with much strong responsibility than me.
Having Hakka dinner after seeing Fruit off, a small restaurant with great taste, we enjoy it so much, I took the workshop preparation break enjoy the Dan Brown famous novel " Da Vince Code " a great novel, no wonder it sold 30 millions copies worldwide and now a soon to be seen movie filmed by Sony Picture, the Randon charater is performed by Tom Hanks, I am looking forward to this film next summer.
Monday Workshop is a paid off one, I love the process and hope the participant share the same with me, returning to office after the session and begin to handle my diary operation, TV CF presenation from " This is David " Olivegry branch agency in Taiwan, this is anothe disaster, as the creative can't satisfied our project manger, another Japanese expetraite, I tried to facilitate , however the tie can't be untied immideately, so sending a mail to him, I want to let him know how expert and collective work will help him more.
Tomorrow will the tranp to Taiwan Ambassdor's meeting, boring and inproductive day. I can see it.
