Second moring of couple outing
Woke up by 6:15 am local time, I didn't sleep well when laying down, spirit came to me, I thought this is quite a clean hotel, but the nightmare didn't grant me the room for rest, however, I managed to get some sleep finally.
Promote the breakfast heavily, I walked in the restaurant and convincing people to take my suggetion, it worked, Bengo approach and request for a morning session by 7:45 am, I am fine, but I can sense that he is not happy with what happened last yesterday.
The meeting begin late due to Mr. Cheng need to send him wife to station. well, I am afraind of the NO SHOW of the tour guide this morning, thanks God they all turn out. Beng beginned with some serious check up for what happend yesterday and urgen what happened can't repeat today, for the people who don't have the sense of " Service ", you must lead them , step by step and one by one. Bengo is right about the accusation, but we need to complete the tour , so, I am playing the nice guy to encourge our Combodia Friend continue service us.
moring seesion on tour is great. the tour guide follow every route we instructed and all the participant enjoy the spectaculor and scene, by the frequency of how they took picture, I know the morning session is above standard. stop at the Ankor Wak artistian is a great ending of the morning, they buy like crazing and appreciate the quality they witness.
another 24 hours to go. we are half way done. non stop servicing really make people sick, sicne I notice this is purly for servicing, I lost nothing, continue my visit to Ankor Wak for consective 3 months - OCT. NOV. and DEC. is abnormal. hope my take home value is greater than I expected.
Ready for the lunch, everyone's hungry, it's 2 pm Taipei time, after all the climing and sweating, they must be hungry.
The third trip, first day in Angkor Wat
The glory or nightmare of chairing the YPO couple outing come to reality today, I didn't get much of the sleep yesterday, not because of the preparation or packing, but to get a deep thought of how to follow my heart and terminate a relationship with on of my Forum member, he asked for the money, the return of the borrowing in a short massage, I was in a meeting with BWCD, to build the connection in working on CHT CSR consulting project, this noize almost suffociate me. yes, if I was not learned for the past 11 months, I may not be survining of the mood now, really, I am thinking should I file the report about the money I spend on his project, and to deduct from the borrowing, I think I should do it , because without value this relationship, I should be clever enough to be an independent man, and even come up with an installation refund scheme, with interest of course, I have no hatered in such a bad bad thing, but to carefully examine the road ahead of csr Community and myself, I can no longer keep me in a free-style of working, should be concentrated on every thing I do and to save every dollar I can, this is turlly important, call M. to check my fininacial status, I have no idea what will it be, hopefully, the learning will bring me to next level. surely, I do
Celine arragne lunch with Mr. Lee Chang Cha - the top 10 outstanding talent in ROC and a model of SMC in Taiwan, he is kindly to invite Day to join us, Day is another role model in the entreprunurhship, the advise they gave is value to what I am doing now, YPOer can't really help me, Day have no answer to my question, but to told me the answer in me is the real voice, whether I belive it or it will not come ture. Lee said - establishing your own business, become an entreprenure is a marathon, a marathon without destination, you can only runing, keep runing, changing and facing all the challenge, they are generally engough to accept our invitation become advisor of csr Community, we defenitely need them to guide us, really.
to smooth the unbalacne mood, I asked wife out earlier for the movie De Je Vu yesterday, to wipe out the bad mood. I growed, and I should be strong enough to prepare for the harder challenge. today in the airplane, Charles - the headliner who'be been accused of bribery First Lady with a diamond watch, also a friend of me sharing a very deep breath to other attendee, I am not in the conversation, but he share some of the life lesson which impress me. golden rules are 5, I can only memories a few of them, such as : Lower your expetation; No comparison;
Get up 5 in the moring, the bio clock force me to wake up for the mission, be the team leader to guild the couple outing. arrived at CKS by 6:00 am, check and count all the attendee and flew them over to Angkor Wak, we are lucky, there's no rain for the First site - Taperon temple visit, Bengo is great in detail and presentaion, but he got mad when the tour guild didn't follow his insturcting when leading all the mentor to the traditional market, he really mad. well, a professionisam and a man who make and changer decision all the time, he want every detail to be presented perfectly and be apprecieted ( I thought )
Eugeia is doing great, she helps both Bengo and me a lot, julia, the assistant Bengo bring to La Paix didn't contribute much - according to Eugenia. I should say a big thanks to her on the closing party.
we are going to have dinner at Viroth, hope it will be a wonderful night also.
csr Community discussion
spend the entire morning for the discussion of our company, with celine, my partner and founding member. before we begin the talk, I draft the agenda which I though will help us go through the session.
she find one cafe for us, I shared with her the learning from her observation, such as multimational employee was on contract basis, and local / family business executive was on heritage / legacy basis, so, without showing your loyalty, there won't be chance for you to inherite connection, relationship and resource from your superior.
we finalize some major point to go through, such as how to make Foot Print analysis a consulting / tetaining service for executive, this concept devlop from the major concern for business executive, the swift from financial ayalist to his / her stakeholder analyst is a driver to approach and to be core competence for us. by utilize my connection and expertise and to maximize the analytical expertise of Celine, I am thinking to package the service to a flat fees which inlcude : Foot Print anaylsis weekly report / e-Paper for CSR related news / web-ad on our site and provide an annual seminar / training for customer, if this product able to develop, then we have a chace to identify our consulting product - a hero product.
the other segment in Product development is to well profile each product, from the postioning, pricing and channel and making 3 tools to help placing those product : company brochure, web-site and my presentaion Power Point, once the product is ready and available, we can sell it to customer, no mammer via my personal connection or by conducting cold calls.
to establish a discussion / working session every morning is a good ' working simulation ", it will help to shape the idea and polish single / bias opinion. then in the afternoon, working on the conclusion and to do's following in the morning session, Eugenia is a great administrator, she can consolidate and make it a monitoring / project base paper for every one.
Celine and I will focus on product development, commercialization of new product, tool development and first contact to potential customer. the working flow then goes to the discussion board and meeting session, to turn idea to workable process, this is how we going to adjudge to our company.
the financial issue didn't go away, I need to find the time for this, inviting Celine to join for discussion, a share responsibility and a share ownership.
WUSB - wirless USB is a very interesting killer which I found in Business 2.o, imagine 2 billions USB in the world right now, the wirless access can mean somethings.
I am really for my new year resolution
If you don't believe,
If you don't belive in what you do, there's no chance you will win; if you don't have the passion in what you do, you will never exceed your performance, if you don't have the heart to help others, then no one will feel you are doing good for them.
if you don't belive, you won't be happy even you triumph in financial gains. if you don't belive.
If you don't have the faith in what you are doing, don't disclose to others, especially those who share the same fortune with you, if you don't have the gut to lead, then don't reveal your fear in front of anyone., if you don't belive, you will never win.
Jae will on board next week, the on and off bring us to an unstable situation, my worry about the csr business now facing another new challenge, taking care of new comer in a csr manner, the new burdon bringing me additional responsiblity, to think hard and to act, maybe this is a perfect driver force me facing the challeng ahead. similar to what George coach to his employee : Facing the Issue, it is challenge, Against the Issue, it will turn out to be pressur.
Thank what I have and how to sustain in another year, this is a brand new challenge to me.
Adjustment of my clock
It's been almost a year, the loose and low displine life reflect to a less aggrestive attitude toward my life and body, I knew I am a very passive person, without pushing, monitoring or motivation, there's no way I will approch the sunshine, thinking positivly and out reach for the meaning of everythings.
The self employment for a year, I have great learning about people and about me. know the real world and see how it works, check the internal me and review my reaction to my feeling. spending one year to learn these lessons, I don't know it's long or short, but without a " Revltalization " and self-rediscovery, the time spent will in vain.
Remember once I made a statement in my cv, The resume to sale myself to potential employer, on the Strength column, The first statement I made is " Thinker and Doer ", but now, after all these rare experience, how to describe and define " Thinker " or " Doer " is serious question to me. but I know, from the diary life of me, my company and the change of my body and mind, I am be sure that the change in me is in a negtive direction, I didn't grow up physically and mentally for the past 11 months, I am not insist on the believe we founded the company, and I am not so sure that CSR will be a good business in near term, and I reluctant to share with people that I will never return to corporate.... the state of mind grow , what's behind it ? only the frustration of finding next client and only the urgent to finance our company next year, a very short-sighted concern occupied almost all my heart, it leave me little room to think positive, about the company , the vision and the goal we set year ago; I don't know if this is the road every entreprunure must pass? but to me, I don't have answer in me and I don't know who to crying for?
However, my body and mind told me if I don't change in postive direction, the worst may come anytime, I have to rewind the clock, put meself back to a good shape, a condition that I love and people know, this is the only solution in me, nothing relate to who to borrow money ? where to work after and what business domain we shall change in next month... this is the list of change I make today, it can be treated as the draft version for my New Year Resolution - 2007:
1. Pick up my exercise at least twice a week, if I can't have it, subsitute one with bicycling and meditation. be more precise - I shall swimming at Regent twice a week and a Spa weekly.
2. Diray to do and weekly to review with my note pad - due to my integration with PDA and Phone, I don't carry on the writing memo / article habit, now, Notepad should help me regain it, but why not digitize when writing memo, think how to make my m600 works better for me.
3. Information reaching out : even I don't have the luxury to sit and wait for information to me as old days, but the convience of internet provide almost every treand and new things I want to know and learn, build my treand musule by checking a few good Chinese / China / English site on regualar basis, not for habit only.
4. Saving for the raining day : keep my life simply and reducing bad money spending habit, I know I can do it.
5. Be expert in what you do : no better its CSR, consulting or any other thing, be concentrate and dig in , if I don't work hard and have a decent learning, there's no way I will grow and be new leader again.
6. Manage my relationship : the asset and resouce on hand need to maintain, it leave me one year to pick up and re-connect what's been lost for a year, if I don't re-establishing it, then I may lost what's been generate before in multi-national corporation.
7. Balancing : enjoy tele-working at least 2 days a month, go overnight in controling budget with family, if I don't have time to do it, then I am totally lost in being a self-employer.
I don't want to great a long list wish, but to focus on the 7 major area, to regain the 7 habit life and to be as positive as possible. this is the resolution draft and I will make it a workable something for me after return from Angkor Wok...the 3rd time
