Fon and Frustration
My emotion rose twice when talking to aj, this is so unusual to me, I am not in line with him strategy and the way he conduct business, this make me so un-comfortable, should I learn from him or should I go my own way?The advise from wife is : It's too late to pull out, otherwise, I will be the laughering target to all the forum brothers. I am not sure about it, but be patient is what I should learn, from day one, I have no masule to theatren other people, no sustainable business to prove to be a strong man. this will lead me to an isolate situation.
Wife said to me, the hard rain is not coming yet, I havn't experience the real pain, she take the metaphore of living with my parent for 20 years. if she asked me to take positon, then there won't be any family hamony right now, if she can swallow her tears for 20 years, how come I can't bear this challenge now, I don't know, I feel like I am an extra person in the game of Fon JV. do I feel lost when aj took over the controlling positon? I don't think so, but to be very honest, I am favor what Mr. Han teach me last week : Go with the flow, don't ride against the wind. if I am too uncomfortable with the situation,then I should not asked for this agressivlty.
The voice from Mr, Chang cause me thinking, thinking for a very long hours, he said he need to take some pills at night to make sure a quality sleep is gurantee, he told me if he forget to take it, nightmare will hit him hard, and it is scary, a man so decently like him, devoted to God and doing nothing but good will encounter with the terrify dream and share it with me, I am really surprise, this is when H,Han wasn't feeling well on one Monday, Mr. Chiang told me he maybe forget to take the pill.
Harold is a great guy with great mind, he teach me unconditonally, take all my postion and think on behalf of me, I am so gratefull to be showering by his wisdom and kindnee, last session of lunch, he teach me : Helping everyone to success, and look only the good part of the person", I should learn more, learn hard, and then on last quick lunch, he share with me the " credit allowance " story of him, how he get 5 millions US without signing any paper, I know what he means and appreciate his reach his invisble shouder to me.
Martin's visit let me learn more about what a " Start up CEO " means, I don't have the idea and capability he had, and I am not sure If I am fine with the road he is heading. csr is the right direciton, I knew, but it's hard to make a living on that , not to mention to establish a safety net upon it.
The deployment of myself hit another stone, I must learn how to survive, how to sustain and how to live happily as I wish.
William / Color / Vivian on board, William hesitating about the decison he made this morning, I can sense his insecurity when I point out the 3 scenarios, I am not sure if he will change his mind. but I share the responsibility to his career.
People first -- is it right or wrong, I hope it won't be wrong. my unconfortable and compalin to Hochen after the dinner last night is a brotherhood. I won't regreat on release my feeling to friend and to let others know my weakness.
YPO NA event finish with good approuse, more to come,but what bother?
Ryan is asking for a contract. so.... good and bad
posted by Roger @ 9/16/2006 05:39:00 下午
