Memory Lost
It happend again, the unstable system cause what I've been written missing when push the publish button; this is truly a frustration situation, because you never can re-write what you said and spending the same amont of time to make it up - especially when this fault cause by others.
I just want to summerize what I can remembered; Thursday morning, when had my breakfast at Howard Plaza Hotel KS, I ran into newly recruited sales manager, as we didn't see each other the day before at the sale meeting, the breakfast is a good chance to build some itimancy.
Reading the " The Workshop Book " on the way back to office, flipping the book and found some tools to be adapted on Monday's strategic meeting, it's been 4 and half years, our company develop a " question raising " " challenge answers "" Dept. own their problem " the silo mentality created some unpleasant working relationship among dept. I wish I can be the moderator to introduce a real " Conensus workshop ", to accomplish this goal, practicing the " Workshop book " and seeking IWNC's help providing " Team Building " Training is in my plan, I am not sure what will be changed, but at least, I know this is what I must do and what I want to.
Thursday night dinner with Christian, an offical introduction to my wife - potentially manager to her, as Typhoon Marsha approaching, the heavy rain and strong wind force people cancel their dinner appointment, it turned out to be only 3 of us, on table in the French restaurant. To visit her parent is the mission we want to conduct after dinner. the appointment was arrange at one little cafe' at her neighboring. I saw the faimly, her father, mother and younger sister - a girl hungry to be a new anchor.
Christine's parent is not in fond of her decision to be an artist; me and my wife didn't convince them this is a good career and bright future for their daugher, but to honest explain to them the advange and disadvange to have a star in their family , and inform them the success rate is about 10 percent only. Me and my wife explore what we know to them and wish the family can build some consensus before engaging in entertainment world. we will wait and see.
City Government announce a Typhoon day off by 10 pm on Thursday night. I take a longer sleep on Friday morning until Tsu Shu high shool call for picking up Fruit. this is her first day home after on week of domitary life.
Receive calls for lunch and meeting after, I didn't take the full advantage of typhoon holiday, lunch with J. inform her the Side Project business lincense granded, then I gradually capture her picture of how to leverage Kororo -- but this is not what I visioned in short, I can't make up any story simply for seduce innocent investor. I wish to discuss with Cathy before take her suggestion an action to follow; to be honest, I am not feeling comfortable.
Meeting at PTS with Chairman Chen and GM Fu, although due to typhoon , the PTS group management consultaning meeting postphoned, but Mr. Chen asked if I can go over and chat with them, this is to reassure my visibility to the potential management role at PTS group. as the thing developed, I am open to this vancany more serious than before, this is a strange feeling that I am forcing to take the possible " not the best " career decision by Oct.
Problems at current company increase, business going down, I don't see the improvment in the existing business, 2 new initative jerpordize as well, they hardly survive, first community service set a target way beyond the real world, the second service trapped in a serious system / technical problem, We fail to meet the launch day for 1 and half months and at the same time, identify the curl truth - our ventor could not deliver.
Change of Chairman of the board is not a symbolic paper arrangement, newly elected ( there never be an election, but a consensus before the meeting ) chariman wish to involve in our operation in depth, to me this is an interruption and harrasment also, I have to devleop a mindset of " Games " before I get upset. the worsen financial situation cause me thinking of outside world before some dirty job came to me again, I hate to be the proxy of laying off / resturcture again.
Friday night, ignoring the typhoon, we brougth the family to the movie " Wonka's chacolate factory " a Tim Burdon ( Beetle Juice ) and --- Jonny Depp ( I forgot his name ) corporation create the imagination juice to us, we enjoyed the film very much, as it promot the family value with a fun approching, no preaching and no harshing; I love the bridge they design at the film, whenever there is a naughy kid end up with bad fortune by his / her bad attitude or behavior; the little drawf will assemble and singing one song - the genre were crafted - Beatles / Queen / Funck .... I love it. the ending of the movie tells one truth out of all truth -- There's nothing presious then Family in the world. you see how difficult for Wonka to pronounced the word " Parent "
Discuss with my wife about the future ahead of us, she share the same worries as I did, the dramatic thing happen before closing our conversation is decided to move the hugh budda statue to her family, she told me how happy I made this decision as the Budda stand in our living room for 6 years, it's a heavy duty for her, since we treated it as an antique, but it might be wrong, we should send to someone who love to offering , even it is no longer a religious symbol. then I may think how to alter the place.
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When seeing the rolling affair of the passed Mr. Koo, the impact was huge, a person will high respect among commercial / political / acdemic field and a person who link the important mission of re-open the dialoge across Taiwan Strait burst out the scandle 6 months after he passed away; I respect Leslie's strong action to handle this case and knows that he get the will to get things done as soon as possible, I recalled the day I pay my mouring to Mr. Koo at the Taiwan Cement Building, the ambience were so elegent, people offering orchid instead of incent, Mr. Koo's picture hanging in the cental of the mouring stadium surrounded by flowers; people respect him and no one dare to shed one stain to him.
Check in Far Eastern Airline counter this morning, I saw master Lee Tai Chaung, a master who cross classical and populare music barrel and become a big shot in Taiwan, about 10 years ago, Lee developed Parkinson dicease, he can't control his body, people said it was recovered, but when saw him this morning, I knew his situration didn't change; his assitant bought him air ticket, then I saw Master Lee laying his hands on the assistant's shouders, he have to face the back of his assistant in order to keep balance; then she ( assistant ) walked one step, wait for him to follow with nimble steps, it seems very move he made will consume the entire energy form his body, so slow and so rigid; I feel sas about him, I don't know why he need to go out , and what's the meaning to attend events which he can't hardly build up interactive reactions; then the aged shodow hit me at my heart , I start to think, when the body decayed , no matter it cause by nature ( Getting old ) or by decease, the inconvience of the body will ultimately suffer one's dignity; because this person will certainly be the man needed help ( to lead, to take care, to lent a hand or shoulder ), and he can't communcate no matter how strong his mind is, if everyone will defenitly follow the same step, let's lend someone a hand now, before we need someone's shoulder latter.
Yang called me by noon when I checked in Howard Plaza KS. She told me the bad news, the test reported indicate that the cancer cell is now transfer to her lower belly - bones; she seems calm , but I can feel this is not the way she is, then she asked if this is OK to drink milk? how to taking care of her body, I asked Sidney for comment, sending him a mail, but Yang's in a hurry, before Sidney reply my mail, she left a SMS to me, I call her up and know hospital asked her to begin the radiation theraphy tomorrow, she didn't know what to do as her doctor is out of town, I called Sidney and be the window to providing her correct information about her situation, what I didn't tell her is according to Sidney's epxerience, her days will be numbered between 6 to 12 months; Sidney suggested to conduct any aggrestive treatment if her body can take it and her energy level is hight, I asked a few question about the Termination Stage and the Peace Rooms.
Went for Shu Hark's " Seven Swords ", I like it, Shu is a great Chinese Martial Director, this is a very long movie, 2 hours and 45 minutes, I don't think the investment will return soon.
Stay overnight at Howard KS, I make a choice to do my own thing today, Tokyo's response with no objection toward our new Chairman's intention of invoving in our diary operation, this make me double upset; if determination it to draw a real line at the bottom of my heart, I will still follow it, but to bais my effort and resouce allocation.
Sauna in a day
I didn't know I am so depressed and feeling helpless until lunch, this is my third time eating at Thai and Thai, when disclose the sadness about Yang and how I feel sorrow about her - a confession in front to C. I almost falling tears, when I made the last statment of " I hate not to see her but to worship with incent ". I almost lost control in front of a young girl, who may never know what's going on....
Sending Y. the letter in express, I draw 3000 words in writing, yes, not typing, I wish she can see my more vividly, so I decided to write her letter instead of typing; I recall the memory when we were young, there's one time 2 of our familiy visited the Beach Park - I remembered that's a newly opened Water Amusement Park about 1 hours away from Tao liu, we took picture and it leave me great memory, she was a mature and grown up little girl, so beautiful then... it flesh still and she is always a beautiful lady in my heart. wrapped up and sealed, I asked I assistant to send it over and receive her message in short, she response with another heartbreak message " Your warm friendship give me strength preparing for the sentence tomorrow.......... "
The Musician Association Standing Committe meeting drag for almost 3 hours, a very unexpected long, I though it was 1 hour only, so squeeze time for my first appearacne, this is terrible, to know them and to contribute some is my previliage, but seeing the transfer of power is really a pity, those who control half of the music industry in Taiwan are now cornerred and no space to strach out. I miss 2 internal meeting due to my time consumption here, I am not sure if my physical appearance means anything to them.
Fix some of Christian's music company harresment, wife hate to be the baby siter again, I don't have the time either, just wait and see what happened on Thursday and how we feel about her parent.
Dinner with Rusty, convince him the project is so important to us. hope he figured out my point and kick the ball rolling from his end.
Tomorrow, business trip to KS, I rather not to treat it as a business trip, I will take it as a light and casure city tour, and no kidding, I am planning to do so.
Eric Johnson will held concert in Mid Oct. Space come to us and seeking our online support, I am a big fan of him and willing to grand a few help.
Do something
Had a concersation with Shu yesterday morning, nothing but to confirmed is she's been told about Yang's current situation, she stop for a while at the other end of the line, she is weeping, then I know she knows, she get the sense that Yang is not in a good shape and inform me Yang paid a visit to her not a while ago and share a few good old memory with her; I interuppted and burst out , this is like waiving goodbye, yes, indeed, she replied.
I asked her to subtelly check if I am be any help, if Yang's concern is her son, I am willing to provide fund for his education until graduation of university, if she facing the termination stage, I am willing to provide supporting treament to make her fell more comfortable - physically, this is what I want to do and I know I may not able to see her before her last day.
Then I started to writing letter, I wish to write her letter everyday, maybe a message, maybe a story, but I will keep it as a good medicine and continue my sports.
Fruit successsful report to school, we are 5 minutes late and she went hysterias in the car, the test is for her to really know what's important and what's not. first day away from home, my worries is larger than her.
Make contact for Christian and manage to arrange one drama audition and one voice audition, it's very trouble to be the baby sister for talent, but this is the only way to keep the itimacy with them and be the person when needed, the cost is pretty high, I will leave it to my wife's first judgement.
Fruit's first day in junior high
In another 20 minutes, I will escort Fruit to her high school - Thsu Shiu. this is the first time she become an independent person; at the age of 14, now I can't really hold her hand, pad her shoulder and kiss her chick; growing up is a combinition of sad and happiness, she it too young to understand, I am too old to be naived agian.
I wish her enough, as the mail I received from Martin a few years ago, didn't sleep well last night, don't know why?
The story in Weekend
Let's started from Friday night, that's the beginning of a weekend. had a business lunch with all the new faces, introduce my wife to them, and she will then start to communicate with each of them, for the company I established and now administrated by her.
She send 2 kids out in order to have a no-interuption evening, it gave me chance to invite her for dinner, we decided to go to the French / Italian restauant located in our neigherhood, the restaruant " Mama Gina " had been there for more than 5 years, we always look from the outside and wondering how long it can survive? to open an elegent French restaurant in the residential area with middle-level of civiten ? it's quite risky, but as it stayed for more than 5 years, we decided to take our ventur and having dinner there, it was good, so to speak, compare with those famours French restaurant downtown, if there were 5 stars, I will rate this one 3.5, the atmosphere and service are relatively good, we had a good dinner. my wife and I seldom talk while eating outside, our job is to clean the dish and go home, we love to eat, but the atmosphere was never the choice to our selection of restaurant, but on Friday night, we did talk and we cross a few conversation, it's nice to have western food, people can really enjoy the food and exchange ideas.
Saturday morning, as normal, the sport morning, afterward I skip the lunch, as I reserved the Thai restarunt for Saturday night, the weekend before Fruit move to dometary and begin her first junior high school life; I was planned to be 2 places for company event : The PC show and Cosplay exhibition, I am not sure how busy the show will be, so I decided to go to NTU stadium first, I guess it will take me less than one hour to finish the mission and moving forward to th PC show, when get off the taxi at the Cosplay venue, I was totally wrong, it was crowded and outside the venue, young people line up for ticket, by observation, I guess it will took me 40 minuts for the ticket, so, I give up the idea of getting in, but to look around the venue, another surprise, a lot of Cosplay young person dress up and post everywhere for professional and amerture photografer; I happend to bring my DSC with me, no hesitating, I took a few photos from thoese talent ( to me, it more like weired ), the crowd make me belive that the generation gap do existing, to see this spectacular in face , the impression is much stronger than cable news. I was there for 30 minutes, and give up the idea to see PC show, I decided to move to Eslite book store - the Flagship shop in Nun Hwan South Rd, I am expecting to shower by the lecture scheduled on 2:30 pm, the schochar who they invited to the " Reading Festival " is acclaimed to be the best knowledgable person in Taiwan and who is also a thinker who managed to integrated western and eastern wisdom into his structure of knowledge, as I had a plan to take his private lession on every Friday evening, unfortunately, the constrain of my scheduling keep me broke my promise, now I do have a chance to listen to him the first time one a public house, free of charge lecture.
I checked in the auditorium by 2:20 pm, in order to take a better seat. he rush in the venue and started to talk, I am disappointed after 10 minutes of his speech, he was not prepared, disorganized and loss focus.. the same situation happend to me when visit Shanghai last time. the seats were taken by 60 %, I think most of them share with me same mind, hoping to show with a man of wisdom, but feel disappointed, I felt in asleep by 3:00 pm and woke by 3:30 pm, I am not the only person who falling asleep, to his courtesy, I see no one run out of the door during his speech, and.... when the Q and A session openned, no one raised his hand, you can see how the audience response to him, it was really bad.
C. send a message about the Formoza concert, I couldn't make it as the earlier promise to the dinner, this might be the first time I fail to change my schedule for her, I don't know how her feeling was, but it's complex to me, even though the nature of this appointment is business, but I always mix it up, she knows and I knows.
During the speech, I receive Yang's SMS, a sad one, she told me the cancer cell had 80% of the chance contaminate to bones, she asked if I may obtain some information from K.L - our primary school classmat who is a doctor now. I feel sad and bad, I can only reply with I will do my best and seeking KL's opinion, but I know this message is an early goodbye, just like the postcard she wrote for good friends, the ceremony taken place earlier already, I am thinking what to do and I wish to do something about it.
KL's response is mild, he said if the cancer transfer to bone, then this is the terminal stage, she may asking for comfort instead of alternative treatment? I don't know, I must do as She request before conducntion my action follows.
The dinner at Thai and Thai is good, I visit there twice in a week and plan to do the third time early next week, My mon didn't attend our family dinner for a yeat at least -- because I didn't invite them, we didn't talk during the dinner, as this is a farewell to Fruit, I order all kind of food which I know she will feel content and happy. good time for her and a compensation to my trouble mind in the afternoon - Yang's situation worried me.
Decided to leave the business apart from my weekend, in the morning of Sunday,. when Fruit asked me to bring her to the Eggplant Curry House, she want to have it before Monday, then I decided to bring 2 kids for a casual Sunday, and leave my wife for her day of free. we had the good lunch and I took them to Mirimar Shopping Center for the Japanese animation movie : Konun, then play at the Tom's world, eating at the food court for dinner; we had a great day and my wife get an unsual day of her own on weekend, I think I love to do it every 2 months, I enjoy doing this.
Flipping the book " Naked at work " today and really in fond of reading, I am thinking to buy more of Hellman's book, it's fun and it's wisdome there.
Night movie with wife, we went to " The Island " love Michael Bay - especially the special efect in action film, this one is no excepting, maybe my wife took the cold medicine, she fall into sleep at the movie, this is the first time I saw her falling asleep during the show. she must be very tired.
This is a long weekend story.
