A lot to share
Don't have the luxury to share everything at this moment, but would like to memorize what's mportant to me these days:
1. This is whey everyone need a Forum , no matter you are rich or poor, you have your own agenda and problem need to consult with or comfort from, so a good place where you feel comfortable and secure will help you to recharge and loaded the unspoken issue. the overnight retreat with new fourm gave me new fleshment, I love them and konw them more, D. ciggar collection and expertis, C. ( Unfortunately he may no longer with the Froum ) tell us the story of " Being Robed " and the " Bear Hunting experience ", J. wish to find a shelter of his own, he feel so lonely for so long. A. is so cool, calm and balances. a great mirrow to everyone. R. have her doubt,yet willing to disclose. I am content. although nobody really enjoy the hot spring last night. the after dinner cigar gathering is a great moment of turth, the following moring breakfast is another great one. how can so many people capture so many burdon and presure. JWW sais a good one - the professional maanger's sad - depend on how the gold ratio of your sweat. how to collect the rent, he is really a great man to invent his own terminalogy, but to impress almost everyone.
H.Han's good advise works so well. I should no keep my wife so so sad and worry anymor.
Our first annual financial review
We have a great partner and colleage - Eugenia, who really tranform herself from a personal assistant to administration manger, she conduct the second annual financial review with us, and at the same time, to model a year 2007 budget accordinly. I am so impress by her professional manner to make a small company in a very systematic logic. the figures show on 2006, we will facing a 700,000 lost, to a brand new company, this is not a bad result, if we counting the Wutai project - our own CSR initative ( roughly we spend one millions NT ), and to counting in the capital 1 millions, the total lost is up to 1.7 millions NT.
The forecast on year 2007, to budget on a minor profit ( say around 1.5 millions NT ), We have to acquire at least 2 millions of consulting contract ( with average 80% of gross profit ) and 15 millions of project base contract ( with average 30% of gross profit ) and this is base on my reducing salary from 250,000 NT to 150,000 NT, and counting in additional 800.000 NT annual salary to Jae Chang ( if he can on board on time ), to acquire the amount of business, we have to scheudle a customer visit and call and to realize how long will it take to close one deal, even the deal complete, the payment scheme won't get as we please, so this is another hurdle to overcome.
the pressure of financial support is approching now, I better prepare a parachute and know how to secure our company, as the same time, Celine and I discuss in a few minutes - what went wrong to put us in a very difficult place to get the deal. the conclusion is : business model. actually, the other reasons are, not aggrestively enough to call custsomer, to approach smaller company and to revise our services. but to debate on these topic won't help.
it leave us only 45 days to approach potential customers - we have to schedule it before it's too late, I have find a way to finance our company.
we cancel the trip to China for CSR Asia conference, I am not ready to go for it, this is a much better decision, to stay in Taipei, spend more time in preparing id softcapital's joint project, it seems this is one of the chances to acquire business from Stan and his association.
Himalaya is very passive, the people don't have a driver to push forward, in public or in private, so, celine dicided to move some of the busineee corporation with outside entity, I have no objection with this approach, but it will ultimatley lead us to a departure from current office. this is truth, how to compensate H. Han's good intention and how to synergize the foundation is always the question.
begin my diet in passive manner, gaining weight and do no exercise will worstern my overall condition, physically and mentally, reading the article about idea come right after exercise, and I knew keep the routine in sports will bring positive thinking to any person, I can cacoon myself for too long. trap for too long and stick with only a few people will not be good, for me, for my family and for my business. I am afraid to follow what Candy been through right now.
H.Han's advise bring me better feeling, he insist on my terminate join Helix, he said it again, it will change my life entirly - in bad direction, not health direction.
Sound is growing great, he had a young compaign, Kwang Ting who I met last year, they are at the same age at same class, she stayed at our house last year for swimming week. this year, the puppy love develop rapidly, when we had the parent's day, teacher even disclose this public secret to us, well, I am not worry, he in only 10 years old, his mother make joke of it , Sound is no happy, last weekend, sound told her mother that Kwang Ting express her " love " to him finally, well, this is an stonting shock to his mother, I have a chat with Sound and told him there are different love in the world - friendship, family and the lovers. he seems know a little bit.
Sound never take / eat last candy. fruit form the closet no matter how he enjoy them, the good heart came naturally, I am touched when his mother relay this observation to me and confirm it orally with Sound, the natual born good behavior will turn him a great perosn in the future, I respect this good will and tell him, even as matur ( old ) as your father, this good deed will not always perform instinctly by me. I am so proud of having him; on the contrast, Fruit is in her rebel age, bad in school acdemaic study, fantasy about fashion, trend and maybe boy friend, develop some bad habit such as stealing from home ( I am really concern about it will be a out of control criminal issue ), never take advise from family member, we don't know what to do.....
Helping Forest school to change the wire, via the assistace from Ta Ya wire and cable, to keep the domitary safe will benefit to all of the school property and life - including Sound, this is what I want to do.. hope the Green Cable will sove the ond and invalid wire problem at Frest school.
appointment with Chung Chi, George this morning, initally wish to have him introduce eSund bank for my csr development, now I might change to seek his advise in my busienss model, customer need and some enprepornor experience, I think I need a great deal of help right now.
Not a Happy Birthday
To recall this bad memory from this Monday, when kindly ( to my understanding ) decline the Helix offering, with no response from both Wu sh. and S. Kwang, I am not regret anymore, unloaded the uncertainty and the fear of trap, I feel reliefed.
Bring wife to Angkor Wok , my second time and a second trial for the coming couple's outing, the expectation is lower and the imagination is limited. the second return didn't bring me more excitement, but to increase some concern about the trip and the country. to be honest, I don't like Cambodia or Angkor Wok this time, a few facts consititue the feeling I obtain now:
1. People are greedy, very greedy, expecially Tutu driver, they are hungery for rip you off.
2. No promise can be trusted. the tour guide change the 3rd times. no earlier notice even in last minutes, you can be sure what can be turst here.
3. Hotel wasn't perfect as I expected last time. the air conditioning system put the wind hole againt your pillow. the bathtub situated in the middle of the room, to quote my wife's opinion, looks like a Koffin in the room, the temperatur control in the show facility is bad, the presure of water is not stable,hot and cold water temperatur can't be stable when talking the shower, and the bottle for the shampoo / body lotion will gain the copper rusty, this is really terrible.
4. The never ending road construction and corruption : conducting road work without any notification, leaving the immigration, the officer expecting us to pay the 3 dollor each birbary agian, why pay when you are leaving ? to get in , you obey, to leave, why to ruit the possible good impression?
5. high tourist tax : from a 20 / 40 dollars Ankgor Wok pass to the every expensive 25 dollar airport tax and very expensive everything at the Siem Reap international airport, can you imagine a postcard stamp will cost you one US dollar? and a potato chip price at 5 US dollars.
Return home on the 9th, thanks God I took the picture of both restaurant owner who we will visit and put their picture on the tour brochure.
Nov. 10, I go to the office, different from before, I didn't take my birthday off, instead, I go for an early meeting with New Froum members to help fix the retreat problem, then a brief discussion of everything happened in the week , also to discuss what to do in coming week. Celine didn't do much, I don't really happy with her expression of to help Slam to sale 5 wiki software - then how about us? only 3 person work and no one go for business, how come not to consider our critical situation?
Lunch with celine, eugenia at KO- owner roger will close this restaurat on the 20th, one of our favourite these years. Roger said : Good food don't meant to bring good business. I ate 2 cakes as roger mentioned that at my birthday, the cake is " All you can eat " then a long discusson about our company took place, Celine wan't happy about my " Unstable " at doing CSR, she hate my attitude of tring to find a new business , but how could she know that I have a surviving crisis and I am the only person to find the business for our company? I don't really feel good, actually, I feels so bad.
Yan called and return me the money he borrowed 2 months ago, I am touched by his keeping promise and fight the good fight for living, he is my role model now - being through so many trouble and problem, nothing knock him down, as my wife mentioned to me, I am too easy to be distubed by frusitation, too offen distracted by the exteral factor - such as Fon and Helix, I should rethink and reposition csrCommunitya and find a way out.
Stan and Tom's project seems not go my way, I better know how to alter and accomodate those changes, otherwise, I will be sentence to a long prison to my own square.
Joseph is good, he help me to think more in postive direction, the lunch at ir 101 builing bring back my level of confidence to 60% .
went to Ching Shen Hall for an unknow poem's concert - Paco Ibaza, a Spanish singer / song writer who perform the first time in Asia, he was invited by the Taipie City Goverment for an International Poetist Festival, I glace at the flyer and banner on the main street for quit sometimes, and make up my mind to check what's going on here, I don't understand the Spanish language, but the co-host and interptator Professor is excellent, Paco sing very light, with only one guitar, I close my eyes almost all the time, to enjoy a sleepy feeling of beauty, find me a corner next to a pillar, with my back support, I might be the only person who can listen and sleep. didn't finish the entire performance, his poster looks nicer than the real one, Paco must over eating, a huge lower belly....
walk out the hall, see a group of mama is practicing belly dancing -- with the backgroud music of Jolin Tsai - this is very funny picture, I stand and be the audience for about 10 minutes, then teenagerw were playing with the roller skate, it seems nothing happen in Taipei,
