Too many new entrant
I changed the way I did for welcoming new employee of the company, the session which I usually stated as " Welcome Talk ", initailly, I will welcome all the permenant employee to my office for a 15 minutes to 30 minutes private session one month after she or he on board, but as the company growth fast, for the last 5 months, we have recurited more than 100 new comers ( not include those who didn't survive for the frist week ), I don't have the luxury to conduct an one on one session anymore, in order to break the ice, I asked HR heard to organised a group welcoming session in 2 scheudles, yesterday afternoon, I did the first round; no sharp or offense question, they were polite to the situation, when deliver the vision and misson to them, I started to believe I am a true leader, seeing some of thme knotting head, I can sense the communication in follow in a good fashion. I put my eye on S. perticularly as I can feel she suffer a little when the conflict occured the other day in the conference room, where Me an K hold different opinion , I challenge her role and responsibilty and she was a victim to this toumoil, so I pay attention to her body language, I can feel when I distribute my energy and passion in an open mind, she loose her body a little bit, shed some smile on her face, this is what I am looking for.Continue reading Benjimin Carson's interview, the Temper control part is inspiring, if you anger, then you are controlled by someone else, this is a good advise to me, don't be irritating by anyone, in any occation, or you will lost the game.
H. Chen came preaching for the investment idea again, I never turn down his wish to see me, but I simply told him I am not in the postion to invest any thing. in the circle of Chinese relationship, I should not be the first , second or even third circle surround by the same epicenter, if he needed money so hard, then he must be in deep trouble, this may be another black hole, what I can do is to provide him some pocket money as I did before, I will support in this way, but not to invest on what I didn't know, but I am intersting in what he invented, a small vacumm mixer for small dose of liquid material, this is really impressive, can sale a lot , I mean, if I have the phamacutical channel.
Accompany wife to Forest School Parent's class last night, Chuang Yu Feng - the chief of ChaYi Culture Beurea, who used and current is a social activist , by writing lyric and for Hakka Band win him Golden Meloday Awards, we met once or twice I can't remember, but ..... during the class, he play his song and telling the story base on the song, a growth reflection to his home town MayLong and his pursue of social movement in argricultuar , eco enviroment etc. I didn't finished the entire speech, we leave by 9:15 pm and went for late supper at The Circle ( Ning-Sha night market ), around 10 pm, you see different people eating there, young and old, mordern and street driffter - we saw a lot homeless these days, how come in Wan Haw , in Circle , those old society, homeless growth? I don't really understand.
My passion is taking a long holiday
How to explain my recent mood, or to be more specific, my working ? Do nothing is the answer, neither concentrate on my current role nor looking forward to my next future; it's like dead water, without any breath of fresh, no enthusiam in anything, feel sleep all the time. It's seems that I leave my passion in the attic and forget to bring it with me. Do nothing is a terrible state of mind, I didn't know why the situation come to this stage, the word STAGNATE, profile current me 100% right. Moving nowhere and going no where.
Beginning of the day in no more an excitement to me, this is also terrible, thinking about those people who suffer from illness and wish to breath every day, how come I am so depressed ? as I always warning others - psychology impact physical. if I plant this " Do nothing, no passion " in my heart for too long, then I will be sick for sure. How to keep the fire inside? how to bring the level of passion to a certian level, how to make yourself happy and to encourge others also?
Lunch with C. who just resign last week, we were graduated from the same junior hight school, so, I invited her for lunch one month ago, and we had a great lunch. But she resigned without notify me, we run into each other in the frond door on her last working day, so, I invited her over for lunch again. she diclosed some uncomfortable feeling when working with her superior , this is the main reason contribute to her resignation, I am not in the position to change anyone's mind, and I have no ground to alter the decison the company made -- accept her resignation, the after talk was simply conduct in the will of we are from the same school. but it's good to know that the young and new employee in the company do have a passion in waht they are doing and do care about the brand they represented.
Living every moment right, thinks this is the last day in the world, then what will change ? Went home after exercise, make a confess to my wife that I am fooling around and lost my heart somewhere; she asked me to take long leaves and asked me to think my future harder, well, at least, promise in doing thing I promise to . this is the basic of a man, not a CEO.
I saw this guy every morning
I saw this guy every morning -- I mean on every week day; To save 2 minutes walking inside the NKSP hallway, I asked my driver to stop at the side door every day; when access through the shopping arcade, this guy will alaways sitting on one table, reading newspaper ( I guess ) and murmuring around. wearing T-Shirt with short pane covered a nylon jacket; first I thought he is a courier , working somewhere in the park, and stay their for the first job to come, then I change my way of thinking, he should be a jobless person making himself a routine in visiting this park. or the worst scenario - an absent mind person who don't know what he was doing.Yesterday was the Teacher / Parents' day at Forest School, I met my wife at the Foundation and change to her car. the session began by 1 pm. 3 teachers show up with the President of the school, Mrs. Chu, the session is much shorter than usual, the scheuled one hour can't be fullfil, nothing, because everyone agreed that Sound improved a lot, his improvement is even greater than other kids in the school, bad temper and retaliation when feeling offense is the character problem Sound had, other than this, he is smart, focus and concentrate on study, good in interactive and win some friendship as well.
We took rest of the day our day off, went for the Lars von trier's film " Manderlay ", this is a heavy one, or we were too exhausted, I break into nip for a few sound, fortunelty, we managed to finish watching, and learn that this is an ideological bigger than drama film, and the director is embrace with much stornger power and courage to express what he thinks about slavery, nigger and the America.
The last session for us is to check Hwa Shi night market, we tried different vendors this time , the taste were great, I ate too much, this already breaking my promise to keep my weight under 68, I need to keep my commitment, otherwise, there won't be any achievement this year.
Went home, sleep at the coach, and going up , laying on bad without take a bath, my wife wisper to my and said : This is the first time she saw me go to bad without taking bath, for almost 20 years, how can I fell so tired these days? I even take a nip in the car on my way to the office, this is rare to see. is my body trying to say something?
Time and Time again
Receving call from Chairman Chen from PTS, The Public TV situation is settleed, he told me President make the final decision to support the PTS controll of CTS prinspal and he need to report to the Board for next management committe, he asked if I am fine with the new arrangement ? I told him to give me one more week for digesting, this is the first time I didn't Say " Yes " immediately and this relactentcy will make him understand I am not not 100% favor in taking this offer. for the past few months, working with the team in a concepture development of CTS turn Public approach, I see and hear a lot and get the picture of : This is the Hell sore of conclusion, I can't imagine how bad it will be if anyone take up this hot seat, black mail, political pressure, ... this is a never ending chellange.
Half of our people went for the company trip, they pick Sueol and Bali this year, unfortunatelly, Bali went throught another terriesist boming again, this is exactly the same happening 4 years ago when the company plan our company trip, so, we move all the groups to Soeul this time. halp empty office is so quite, I cancel one managers' meeting and keep myself in the office for a day.
After lunch, I tried another cafe' at NKSP, - Chock Full Cafe' , a nice place to read and think and the coffee they brew were great, even better than Starbucks, this might be my new hideaway, well, for next few months maybe. I was reading one article pring from Fast Company, the story / interveiw with Benjimin Carson, a great story and a very speical person. A world famous Neuro Surgeon, the best and youngest brain surgons in John Hopkins Hospital when he was only 32 / 33. grow in humble , bad temper, his 3 grade only abondon mother take car of him and his elder brother , a great inspiration to me. Then I receive message from S. he asked to see me in late afternoon, the Ezfly goes alive again...
I set a prerequiste and assumption at the same time and told him : The major concern is working together but losing friendship. so, we decided to build the communication channel as flexsible as possible.
I am not sure If I am doing anything right, or as S. mentioned about himself " Making a right decison in the wrong time or making a wrong decison at the right time " we talked at his WORLD - the newly decorated house , on the top belcony, I shared with him what I learn from Chou Tribe when attending the Parent's Growing Class. the teacher said " The Destination of where our ancient stop drifting is what we call " Home land " Now "
Night with C. we go over all the scenario I've been working on, the priority she favor is EZfly, this is so far the best route for me to access to an industry with potential to build own own. there are 3 core business in our heart " Music. Culture and Travel ", Travel can be treated as an industry, the rest of 2 take longer time to establish and devleoping, and she wish we can be the leading something in one of the industry we choose. I am not so sure now and this is a trial period.
Sharing until Wee
I didn't know the mood change so dramatically, so I can't stop talking to my wife until 2 or 3 in the morning, maybe I need to bring back some confidence by talking with her, the conclusion I draw is " You can't counting on others for your own future ", everyone response for his own destiney, there's no way for anyone to take the burdon from you, and also, there's no one in this world should promise you to success.But, we can defenatley choose our way of living, no matter it's rich or humble, to be content inside, to be happy and to pursue and capture ( Yes, I am using the vacabrory people seldom used when searching happiness ) the happiness in us.
Reply my mail in early morning, then I realized " Working " dosen't meant to send mail response other mail, this will only cumulate the communcitaion time and increas the cost of communication, then no one have time to " Fix " " Excute " the work. I've been sitting on the captain's seat for too long, giving orders, asking for deadline, this is not leading, this is driving. I am not sure if this is a true talent , but I shall re-examine what I really know and what can be transformed and transfer as my competence to live. to recall on one article I read, " Why people talked others to do always double the salary when compare with those who really doing ? "
Communication is powerful, and this is why Winston Churchill try to memories his speech and make it an improvisation to impress everyone. there should be some magic there, discover it, find it, extend it and let it be your weapon as well.
No time to waste, gear up for brighter future, you can counting others for your own future.
It's Suana again
When S. called and asked I I will attend Rose's wedding tonight, I was in the middle of the MIB judge session, I thought he wish to fullfill his commitment of bringing the " Agreement " over, then I called my wife to pick me up by 9:30 pm, as I will not able to go over the details with him, since I should wait for Chairman HC' further confirmation.
The sudden surpirse is he express his possible of leaving the airline and thinking about where the change will impact on the online travelling agency and the potential pros and cons to my decision, I didn't aware of the context of this prelude untile I degisted his word when degisted my meal at the wedding banquest. then I realized he is not prepared to recurit me or in a more profound way - to access my career to his platform, the development of my feeling getting worst, because I am too heavily counting on others' words instead of action. " God helps those who help themselves " how funny I quoted it from the man I dislike, S. who said it to us last Friday when attending our monthly closing meeting.
Met a lot of old friend at the wedding, Rose launch a grand scale wedding, I had a question in mind, why arranged such a big wedding the second time ? then I answered it myself, that's beacuse she want to treat it the first and only wedding she admitted. I am not questioning any good or perfect wedding arrangement, but I only know who produced unforgetable memory will be obliged to keep it permenment, as no one will forget what you tried to impress and you will never forgive yourself if thing dosen't work out in the end.
Some long lost friends - well, sore of, approching me, greeting with hi and hey, they wish to continue or devleoping the relationship in a company level, I can tell what they see me is a " S.... " man instead of Roger - the person. well, this also reflect to the cruel world, you can only trust yourself.
Spending half day at The Wall for the Music In Business final judging, I love the way young man showcase themself with music and the ideas , this is the first time I saw a more complete way of hanlding youth business devleopment approach and I admire the master mind behind the campaign. 9 groups performing and 9 team manage, young helping young is a brilliant idea, but creativity is never an idea or imgination, it's a task of working hard to turn your light bulb a shining fire and keep the fire burning always. my advise to the NYC is to build a reward system after to be sure these team can establish for one year or more.
I had an emotion to write her a letter and share with her what happen today.
There's picture in my mind when receiving Yang's message, she mentioned the musical tickets is under her pillow, she treat it as the warmest medicine helping her through the tought kimotherapthy, the picture of her is a patient lying on bad suffering from the cancer, however, I can see her smile in her face and the snow-white pillow and the tickets insides. this is at least what I can do to support a good friend. a very strong comparison to Wu's son, who always take advange of my good friendship with his father, call and asked for free tickets. and the tickets were what I bought for him. whey parent spoilied their kid this way, I don't know why?
Last Saturady, control my desire, a family night market trip to Keelung, then go to the movie with my wife " lord of war ", the night before we went for another one , can't remember its English title, the 2 films dealing with one global issue : How the rich squeeze the poor by using their political and commercial power, one is the arm dealer , the other is phamachedical company, war in Africa and sick in Africa create enormous opportunity for risk taker, especially for those don't have a good heart. I understand movie sometimes will dramatize the story, but this is a perfect education for us. 3 billions of current population suffer from diary living, with less than 2 US dollar to support, it will ultimatly bringing us destruction.
as I told Sound why not buying Nike and the story of sweat labor - the kid labor, he told my wife he will not buying andy Nike product anymore. maybe I am right about a little, but I should follow with what I know and what I see.
