If I hold your hand
If I hold your hand, would it be the last chace we meet ?If I kiss your lips, would it be the last time we talk?If I express my feeling, would it the be last moment we sit ?
Farewell Party
This party was designed by me, I took the chance of the company Dragon Boat Festival Gathering, and combine it with the COO farewell; as I wish to gather the enire company to this party but I don't want to purposely schedule an indivisaul party for him and allocate budget for this. so July 15 was the day we celebrate. one week before COO's last working day.
I asked my secretary to prpeare 2 gift for him, it all came from my idea. one is a plaque with the company slogan and commitment written by him, I reprint it to a very tiny T-shirt and flame it and to insert with the employee number of COO, He is the number one employee of the company, the second gift is the photo albums which I gather o every majoy event / occation he participated and to illustrate the road he lead and walked with all of us, COO can't filp the photo album at the scene as he will cry, I know.
I choose the small town to conduct such a farewell party, The brothers' restaurant located at Ching-Sun ( Golden Mountain - by translation ), it owned by my friend who we met at the army, the banquest hall can accomodate at least 1,000 people, we reserve the whole hall for the paraty, in order to make everyone drink to their end and safty home, I urge the company warefare committy to book 3 buses , bring most of the pople there and send they home , to make sure everyone's home safty, I asked each depts to assign one liaison window to call their dept. and reporting to me at the end. everyone was safe and I receive the report by 12:30 midnight.
P. and S. cried so hard, they share the ture feeling with COO and eveyone at the scene, I arranged a one man band - A, Chang to provide live Karaoke, he is so great to stir everybody up. it was a good party, and I know this is an unforgatable evening for a lot of people.
Bring the family to Madagasca - the Dream Works animation tonight, a good one , adult and kids both enjoy the story - with differenct perspective.
Bought iPod Shuffle Sport case, 1000, expensive , but the design is so attractive, accesory may generate half of it's revenue and the iPod economy is a sustainable business now, remember what I degiste before ? When the mainstream is strong, all the application survive.
T. share a very good insight during the ping pong session, he said Sony didn't really know what " Nature " it want to sale ? Device ? Software or Rights. a very good point for senior executive in Sony.
Forum Moderator Training
Participate on a 12 hours Forum Modertor Training, a great chance to enhance my understanding of Fourm, YPO and the value of been invited to a healthy Forum. the training began on Wed. night, after a quick dinner, 2 trainer start the training.As I havn't been to the Forum Training, particpating on Moderator's training is kind of an upgrade version to me, first I thought this is to show my support to our Forum, then I realized that I am lucky enough to attend it. the tools, process and discussion itself bring me deep and rich harvest for the past 2 days. not only from the training itself, when we acting as one temperory forum with the confideciality norm and protocal, I managed to know some YPOer in an in-depth angle. it's not easy for people of 8 to sit together for a day or 2, especially people holding the CEO crown; I like what David described: CEO should entitle to managed their time, a " Can Say So " attitude to make decesions - an action decision, I love what he saying and from the 2 days training, he participated as an obsevrver, but he invovled in the discussion the same level as other trainee, I am very impressed in his thoughts / ideas and insights.Met with J. after the training, learned that the company is lacking of money, it caused by the inefficient in closing deals or developing business, this is the first time I feel anxiety about money, and the strong ambition to get thing done. I calm down a little bit and advise him, this is his company, his dream and he must master all the operation in professional way and he must develop some potential which he never discovered before. July and Aug is critical for getting new business for them, this is a challenge for both of us.Getting loan from bank and conducting the confirmation process last night at home, 1 millions NT is not a big number, but to deposit your house for the investment is another challenge or milestone for my family, I should follow the advise from H. Han, be very careful in everything.After the loan confirmation procedure last night, we took kids out for ice , the Tai-Yi ice house located in the opsite side of Taiwan University is a famous one, close by our house but hard to get a parking space, the city health bureau just complete an ice house clearness check, and they reported that Tai-Yi have some deficit, like the ice contain of germs is highly than the acceptable standard, but who care, the place is crowded still and sicne the berau annouce the result yesterday, we though the condition must be improved these days, it should be much safer to enjoy it now. so, we went and we do enjoy the cool feeling.
The Mutually Favorable Future
Lunch at Bruno Cafe'. a very popular place, you hardly get a seat, they only accept the reservation before 12:00 noon and if you didn't show up by 12:10, then they will automatically cancel your reservation; so, I made the reservation and keep my morning meetings short in order to be there on time. it's all crowed before 12:00.C. came on her time - 12:30, eating is good, sharing is even better, we exchange a few important plan in life - well, it seems to me. she advised me that CTS is not a good option for me now, not any more. as the higher rank official change their mind about how to run the seond Public TV, and she is also tired with the situation surrounded by her, we may come up with a new company to run a new venture and to build something brighter together. she had the confidence and she had the credibitly and she had the capability. as ususal, we shared until the last minutes that we must go.Exhausted in the office this week, probabelly because of COO is no longer seeing and checking things. I have to pick up almost all the trivial issus in the company, I am fine and I should be flat to all people.The problem I have right now is the communication cost with expatirates, this is a clear obstacles which I don't have a solution yet. I can only asked corported planner dept to share the important meeting results to them after the meeting, they can't even contribute during the meeting, like strangers sitting in the strange place, doing their own thing, until the judge call it off - to me, it's like trapped in a prison, not a good feeling at all.PR arrange TV interviewing at ERA TV, we were there by 7:00 pm and finish the interviewing by 8:10 pm, the host Mr. Ho is very sophisticated, from his greeting with guests ( all of them with title of CEO / GM / Chairman and spending decent budget on TV commercial before ), exchage personal contact with them ( include me ) and continue the not-in-the-interveiw session questions when walk you out of the studio, you can feel he had strong ambition to be somebody, I don't know.Christian stepping out , she took her first step asking her manger return the original contract, and waiting for the release of contract agreement, she is cute, but I am not sure if she is a very talented singer, I decided not to introduce her to J. as we are not yet the partner with J. production, I must be conservative and prudent in all the details, don't forget what Harold advised, be very careful.Handle one dispute with Sound and her mother last night, I told both of them they share the same blood and DNA, so the reaction toward each other is the same, if someone step back, withdraw a little bit, the confrontation won't be so serious; my wife is so cute, as we promise not to conduct any physical attact to kid -- the golden rule from Forest School, so she release her anger to me, beat me at my leg and slam on my back, so interesting and so funny.Never get enough sleep these days. I am hunger for a good night sleep.remember: Determination is to draw a real line in the bottom of your heart.
It doesn't like me
First time, I conducted the strategic meeting by myself, COO take a smart leave as he will soon be gone, to participate on the discussion without a future doesn't make any sense, so, I chair the meeting alone, I was prepared and willing to share , in the beginning, I recall what the company addressed during the kick off meeting and share with everyone the Fish and QBQ spirits; then I can't help telling everyone how critical Q2 is and if the figures can't be achieved, then I am losing the capability to lead the company, this is transparent enough, I am not sure if my emotional speech cause by the lunch with J. on Sat. or I really want to trun myself to another person who I am not familar with.
This is the problem, when I tried to play tough, rais my voice, they don't feel my anger or my anxiaty, am I losing the convincing power or this is not my talent, I am not driving people by mean and demanding way, but to coach and to guide. as we are really running out of time, I am thinking of coming up with a new way to lead, but it doesn't like me at all, it will be intepreted as a mid-life executive complain about the company, the not devoted enough employee and his incapability to deliver -- yes, this is the keyword -- I can't find a good approch to
1. Deliver my message clear and loud without losing my personality.
2. Find a way to make they deliver the numbers company budget for.
I thought I should change my way of leading the company and the mangers, maybe I ma wrong, maybe I should express more about my talent, maximise the power of " What " and " How "
The eyecatching piture of the day is " You Can't Sink A Rainbow ", a protesting rally held in Paris to show Green Peace's anger , they are angry because 20 years ago, Miderran insturct to sink the Green Peace Ship - the Rainbow. I am not acquainted with the Green Peace, I take it as the fundementalist in the ideology of " Enviromental Issues ", but the Rainbow protesting is so compelling and of courese - creative.
Decision
Learning how this word developed and really astonished how it imply: it came from Latin and with the meaning of " To cut off ",which means, decision is to cut off all other choices and leave only one. so, the most important and difficult thing in life is to " Make Decision "
People don't like uncertainly, so they defer timing for decision, and it became urgent issue. decision is to make only one choice and to abondon others. the other important topic form the current Forbes is " to tell the diffierenent between Wrong decision and Bad decision ", a wrong decision is wrong at the first place - this is the reslut which can't be controlled . a bad decision is wrong at the process - this can be controlled by us. so to elimnate the bad decision, we better learn how to wll control the process.
Having the quaterly strategic meeting today, I seriouse advise all the managers how worry I am in the company the future ahead of us. and urge all the mangers to reflesh on 2 books which we were heavily influence years ago : FISH ( Choose your attitude, Play , Make their Day and Be present ) and QBQ ( Ownership is the commitment between Head, Heart and Hands to fix problem yet not to affix it ), I shared with everyone the goals we made at FY05 kick off meeting and inform everyone the change of board and gobal CEO and the impact it may occur to us if we can't deliver the numbers we budget before.
Store songs at my iPod and enjoy the music I install. a fun and new toy to me.
I am so moved
I skip the family gathering dinner last night, this actity was to cerelate the 60th birthday of my uncle, we were told to bare the cost with my sister - my wife cashed 50,000 NT for it; I am not in favor of doing this, so, I am not interested in particpating.
After the long lunch with J. and his newly married wife S. I sat at the Haaz cafe' - the cozy and warm little cafe' which I become a regular visitor on Weekend, order a coffee and reading, but yesterday I was working on meeting documents and paper, since Monday I will chair the strategic meeting without COO, I must take control and be prepared in front of all the managers, I reflesh some Kick-off document and recall the mission, value, commitment the company annouced on April, and I review some values we highly believed before such as : Fish ( Choose your attitude , Play , Make their day and Be present ) and QBQ ( eliminate WHY / WHO / WHEN and replace with How and What with an " I " attached ), then I realized we lost sight on the value we promised before, and to check the 3 major goals in 3 difference area and to minotor the figures we promise to delivered, I understand to bring the company to one piece will be a highly challenged task.
I managed to have J. stayed for another 3 months to observe if we may overcome the long lasting problemes in our company, I don't want him to stay becaure of the emotional feeling such as because of me. and I wish him to experience the road he doesn't encouted before he make his assumption. people should not draw to any conclusion without experience and digested it, and I advise him all the foresee factors are illustion as none of them happend now, uncertainty is the only fact in the future. we don't predict it , but to experiece it and my overcome those hurdles together. and I advise him to give up or withdraw from current positon and assignment will easlity be treated as a man incapable to handle problems or difficulity and will not be hightly recommened by others. I do hope he understand.
It's so quite at night as everybody went for dinner, I take the aboriginal complilation album which I bought 2 weeks ago at Park View Hotel in Huilien and begin to listen, when it play to track number 10, Panai sang a Fokanned song " Tai Tung People ", my tears run out, it;s so touching and she intepretation of the song was so vivid, you can see the visual coming out of her tonation and lyric, a native Amai tribe sang such a powerful Taiwanes song. I listen and listen and I wish I can do somthing for these greate singers, the song is talking about aborinigal girls working in pron house - this misfit reflect to the low life of young tribe back in 70 and 80th in Taiwqan, one day she found that she was pregenant but she have to cover her belly with left hand, but to welcome strangers on his right hand. so sad, so touching, so deep and so true.
I listen and listen and I should do something about this.
