19th wedding anniverally
We do it without planning, as we know the day will come, so, we go with our heart and enjoy the ever best wedding annivarly in life so far.
I decided to take a day off on Sep. 28th, no matter what's imprortant in my calandar, I asked my wife to pick me up by 6:00 pm on 27th, jump on our BMW 320i, we decided to go north, to Yilan county for our wedding anniveray dinner, I bought me with a bottle of white wine, David send me 12 bottle for the moon festival, we seldom-- to be more precise, we didn't drink for celebrate anythings, but I brought a bottle of white wine with me. to Yiland, had a great dinner at the famour Du Shio Yueh restauranat, 2 of us, then drove back to Chiao Shi - the hot sprint township for the night, with glass of white wine.
follow morning, the annurally day, we decided to up to Taipin National Forest PARK, without know how far and how long it will take, we drove 2 and half hours there, in a cold - 16 C degree, I am the only perosn wearing T shirt. and drinking the coffee in the latitude of 2000 feets, surrounded by Clouds - beauty as cloud. danger as dense fog when drove back to Yilan, a very unique experience.
we access to Super highway on 1919, what an interested coincident, less then 30 minutes, we arrived home. a great day for the momory of our 19th wedding ceremony.
The God at the temple of the high mountain refrain me from asked my fortune, what a interested encounter. the only physical gift we bought for memory is at the gourgours hot sprint villa - Ren Chen Hot Spring, the Crypress with Oil bag, a memory with scent.
Wanna write you a letter
My mind is floating yet my life is stagnating, leaving corporate for almost 2 years, I know there's no turning back. it's time to say bye bye to Corporate Whatever, it's like sailing on the wide sea, now when looking back, you hardly can see the harbor you departure and you are in the middle of the blue sea, if you open your eyes widely, you didn't know where to sink the anchor, where to land and where to STOP...
Life Compass? not even existing in the real world, all the books I read lead me to nowhere, I try to play the game, the game to break the word NOWHERE to NOW HERE - from dysfunctional to directive. but this is only the game, it won't reflect to the real challenge, a challenge concerning future but not related to some very important priority in life , such as Family, Health and Friendship...your can only check and balance, now I can define what " Uncertainty " means, although I am not the perfect person to intemperate Uncertainty.
Blur and Fuzz, this keep me nervous, I am getting to use to it as I've been trained to feel and taste the blur for quite sometimes. Do I need a couch? Well, everyone can be couch to others, by writing this letter; I am self-healing in certain way. Or Do I need a doctor? A mentor? a SOULMATE?
The confrontation between Principal and Value battle in my heart, some may change, some may stay, I am afraid what's left should go, what I swept should stay. A value confusion and a battle with no blood shed.
Please try to be a manger instead of a creative director or project leader while I am away, we tried to fit in different shoes and we tried to dress in different outfit, now we try to accommodate to the role in the development of our little venture. I shall return soon, maybe sooner than we know, but until then, please be the manger, learn to be the manager, no matter how hard it will be, try it first, for the first time, for the uncomfortable experience, for the sake of our little hope.
Survive before Sustain, Sustain prior to Success, Significant after Success, the 4 S loop is there waiting for us, we are in stage one - the surviving stage. I know I should contribute more, more in acting than talking, but please bail me from this trouble world, I am not asking for a wild-open door to welcome my return, but a breeze with scent that attract me home, our dream land at csr Community.
It's a luxury to work with the one you love and trust, I guess we both have half of the nature, to keep a 50 years partnership to reality--a test of commitment for life, I feel happy, this is what I seldom sense for a very long time -- a feeling of happiness.
Thanks for finishing reading, and sorry for my poor in Mandarin typing, most of time, I can express my inner feeling in simply English and I know you can receive the level of understanding as rich as I am.
Talk to you soon...........Love
